I have yet to perfect motherhood.....

But who has, right? I mean really.....no one is a perfect mom. We all make mistakes, no matter how old your children are. But those are the joys of motherhood. The daily lessons learned. Growing with your children, smiling with them, crying with them, laughing and acting silly with them, kissing their boo boo's and protecting them from the monsters they're scared of. Their first smile, words, steps, kisses, tantrums......the good, the bad, the joys and (what I sometimes call) the evils. (Lol) It's given to you, you take it, accept it, enjoy it, and learn from it and most importantly, you try to perfect it. Motherhood is a gift not given to everyone. It takes 5 minutes to make a baby but a lifetime of love, patience and understanding to be a mother. From one mother to another....never let anyone tell you how you should raise your child. Of course, taking advice never hurts but we all have our own ways of doing things. If you have a happy, healthy, perfect child (in your eyes), then you must be doing something right. Just love like you've never loved before.....the rest comes without effort.

At 24, I'm the very PROUD mother of two, a three year old and a one year old. They are the most amazing, beautiful, smart, caring, funny, loving children I have ever met. And I must say their swag is ridiculous. ;) That’s not just because they're MINE either. Having my son at 21 was definitely a challenge, a baby raising a baby. As he grew, I grew. Everyday we taught each other something new. I still remember when I found out I was pregnant with him. I was 20 at the time and scared beyond words. When I read POSITIVE on the pregnancy test, I thought my world was over. I sat there looking at the double lines; one was so light that you could barely see it. So, I kept thinking to myself "Maybe it doesn't know if I’m pregnant. Maybe I still have a chance". I cried and cried....for days. Happy? Sad? I didn't know!!! But once I pushed aside all the worries and fears, I was excited. God blessed me for a reason and I had the support of my wonderful family. Plus, I was going to BE A MOMMY.

I went into mommy mode almost instantly. I don’t care what anyone has to say, you become a mommy the minute your baby starts to grow inside of you. I went from this hot headed, ready to attack, firecracker to this mellow, gentle person, seeing it all from a mommy's perspective now. I still have a crazy mouth and a nasty tude but I’ve changed a lot. Just realizing that my babies are my life now, it’s no longer about me. They are more important than any unnecessary drama or situations that could possibly be life changing for all of us. Never would I have imagined that a little over two years later I would be having my baby girl.

Raising a boy and raising a girl are two completely different experiences. So, you can't go in it thinking "I got this" because the fact is, you don’t!!! One will point that little pee pee in the air and aim at NOTHING, hitting whatever comes in its way while the other will simply leave a puddle for you right on your side of the bed. Girls are such divas, overly dramatic and bossy. She is definitely her mother’s daughter. It’s like looking at a midget reflection of me. As much as it bothers to think, I know her and I will be bumping heads along the way. It has started already. And I tell you....its not easy trying to win an argument with a one year old, the little lady with very few words. But she sure knows how to get her point across.

Everyday that I wake up, I smile because I have two little angels to share my life with. I’m so overjoyed, so blessed that it makes me cry at times. Tears of joy of course. I don’t know where I would be if I didn’t have them in my life. My everyday decisions are based on the affects it will have on THEM. I live for THEM. I breathe for THEM. I work, remain sane, love unconditionally, forgive so easily, smile, stay strong, and fight harder for THEM. Because they are so worth it and I love them beyond what words can explain. My thing 1 and thing 2....my life doesn’t exist without you. :)